I know you don’t realize it but my heart is broken too. I didn’t realize how I was treating you ,and in a week my life went from being “normal” to losing my best friend. I went from having a loving, caring boyfriend/partner, to someone that doesn’t even want to talk to me. That is heartbreaking enough, but then add to it that I find out that I have hurt the person that has always been there for me, the one that has loved me for so long.
You no longer call me, unless I ask. You no longer use any terms of endearment, you won’t give me an answer about coming to see me. You don’t tell me you love me. I miss all of this, I miss your facebook post. I miss your voicemails, I miss you calling me babe, and darling, and telling me you love me. I miss us. I know it is wrong of me to complain about being hurt, after all the hurt I have caused you, but I still have feelings and a heart and right now it is broken, and I am doing everything in my power to help you through this, I am trying my hardest to show you that i have changed and that I am putting the work and the effort into our relationship like I should have been doing. I need you to please give in a tiny bit. Start acting like you like me again. Start giving me a chance, come and see me, spend time with me, look into my eyes and see the love there. Let me cry in your arms, cry in mine, please please give us a chance to reconcile. I have hurt you, and I am so so sorry, and there aren’t enough words to ever show you this, but I truly think you are letting the hurt possibly destroy our future and our happiness. I love you, and I truly think that God put us together, and here, listen to this song and know I mean all the words.
I probably shouldn’t even post this, I was just typing to get it off my chest, but I don’t think you are reading these anyway, so I am going to go ahead and post, after all this blog is for the good and the bad to see how we pushed through and made it work.